Kansas and Before The Morning

I found out on April 27th that my Father has stage 4 pancreatic cancer.  So, I quickly packed and flew out the next day to Kansas City to spend time with my family.  My sister, Pennie has been doing “saintly duties” by caring for my Father for the past year.  Pennie lives in Oklahoma and has been making the 3 1/2 hour drive to Kansas every week to help with all of my parents’ household and health duties.  We didn’t know about the extent of his cancer until a few weeks ago but his health has been declining the past couple of years.  This cancer diagnosis has been quite a shock and a lot to process. 

My daughter, Nichole and her 22 month old son, Alec flew out the next day and left this past Thursday.  Everyday, we would Skype with Nichelle and her family with my Father and Mother.  Nichelle of course is unable to fly because of all of her medical issues.  She and her Grandfather have always been the best of “buds.”  Nichelle would be there in a heartbeat if she could but it is not possible at this time. It has been really nice to spend quality time with the family and really difficult at the same time.  I miss Milt, the dogs, and of course the mountains but I’m thankful to spend quality time with my family.

  I found this song on You Tube and perhaps you can find some strength through its message.

by Josh Wilson
Feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you where is He now
Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending
Someday somehow you’ll see you’ll see
Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning
My friend you know how this all ends
You know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there
So say a prayer
And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you’ll see the bigger picture
Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory
It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

Also I found this message on a blog and thought it was pertinent and also uplifting.

Malachi 3:3 says: “He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver.”

This verse puzzled some women in a Bible study and they wondered what this statement meant about the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out the process of refining silver and get back to the group at their next Bible Study.

Silversmith That week, the woman called a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him at work. She didn’t mention anything about the reason for her interest beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.As she watched the silversmith, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire where the flames were hottest as to burn away all the impurities. The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot;then she thought again about the verse that says: “He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver.” She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the whole time the silver was being refined. The man answered that yes, he not only had to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on the silver the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed. The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, “How do you know when the silver is fully refined?” He smiled at her and answered, “Oh, that’s easy — when I see my image in it.”

If today you are feeling the heat of the fire, remember that God has His eye on you and will keep watching you until He sees His image in you.
Right now, at this very moment, someone needs to know that God is watching over them. And, whatever they’re going through, they’ll be a better person in the end.

I have been taking a lot of pictures but unfortunately my laptop which I have owned for almost 4 years got a computer virus and “bit the dust.”  I bought it for $300.00 and it was a refurbished Dell.  My brother-in-law, Al took it in for repairs here in Kansas City and delivered the news that it was a 10 year old computer and it was time to seek other options.  As a result, I have not been able to view, edit, or post any photos.  Luckily, My sister, Pennie is letting me use her computer to make a long overdue blog entry. 

I am thankful that I have been able to help serve my Mother and Father at this very difficult time of life.  However, I know that because of The Savior’s atonement that we all will live again and that “Families Can Be Together Forever.”  Pre-mortal Life, Earth Life, Testing and Trials, and Death are all parts of a play of our own lives.  Death is just one more act in the play but certainly not the final act.  I am very grateful for this knowledge and the comfort that it gives me.  I believe in the Plan of Salvation which you can read more about.

Next week is my birthday and Milt is flying out to spend time with me and see my family.  I’m very excited to see him and feel his strength and counsel.  Both of his parents have passed away so he has experiences that I’m sure will help to strengthen all of us.

I also like this song by Josh Wilson called Somethings Gotta Change.

Have a great weekend and enjoy the journey!

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